Just another one of those days

Actually, it's been a few of those days. A lot on my mind. I'll be okay after a good cry. I always am. God, such a girl. Lol.

Esha just runs into the room with her sunshiny mood and high pitched happiness voice! And for a moment the world is good again. It's always been good, I guess, but she reminds me of it.

I think I'll still wait for that good cry, too :)

Love story

Love Story - Beethoven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IJzQPuelBBU&feature=related

As soon as I heard this I wanted to share it with Shazia. She loved instrumental pieces. Especially the sounds of the piano and violin.

This is such a beautiful piece. Every time I hear it I melt into the music. It's on repeat for now :)

Attempt to be crafty project #1

I saw this project on a blog while I was 'stumbling' and wanted to try it out for Arti and I: Watermark Tee by Sweet Verbana. Here is the original link just in case you want it: http://www.u-createcrafts.com/2011/08/creative-guest-watermark-tee-by-sweet.html

Project: Create your own tee with your favorite quote, song lyrics, sayings, etc. It looked easy, fun, and cute!

Step 1: gathered all the supplies i needed.

-white 100% cotton tees from walmart - they were only $4.99

-rit dye tinte (fabric dye) from michaels -i wanted rose pink and gray

-elmer's blue gel glue

-water resistant board

-bucket to dye

Step 2: preparation

- run the t-shirt in the sink under cold water and then wring all excess water out

-have water resistant board ready to put inside of shirt

-and bucket for dying when ready

Step 3: the art

- stretch shirt across a water resistant board before you start writing on wet t-shirt

- i used a storage tub lid, it worked perfectly

- write or draw whatever you want on the t-shirt

- arti wanted lyrics from "colors of the wind"; i'm going to use the lyrics from "good life"

Step 4: drying and dying

- wait until the glue is completely dry!

-then get a bucket of cold water and put dye according to how dark you want the shirt

-be careful, you don't want to get dye on carpet or other fabrics

- wring excess water and hang to dry (in shower)

Step 5: original and you

-enjoy your shirt!

This was so easy to do. And I loved how it turned out. Can't wait to start mineeee!!! Hmmm, this could be a great gift. Thoughtful and fun :)

Friday the thirteenth

I want to rewind last weekend all over again. I miss Roshan. I keep going through the pictures over and over again as if I might find myself there. Ahh!

A farmer with a Ferrari

The boyfriend meets the family. The family likes the boyfriend. The boyfriend likes the family. The girlfriend is happy. Life is good.

My weekend with Roshan was wonderful. Everything went well with the family AND I got to spend a lot of time with him as well. He fell in love with the family and I fell in even more love with him.

And of course I bought him two plaid shirts that he looks so good in! He was laughing hysterically when he put them on. He thought he looked ridiculous... I know they weren't his style but "Mm, Mm, Mmmm!". He joked and said that the boyfriend changing process has begun. So not true. Well, so not entirely true ;) Haha. Roshan said he would try and wear them for me. In all fairness, I said that I would wear any two things he wanted me to as even trade. Shouldn't have said that because who knows what I've gotten myself into now!

Everything was as perfect as it could be. He loved everything. Thanks, Mom!

He flew back home yesterday. I can't wait to see him again.

He says to me, "I'll be whatever you want me to be, baby, a farmer with a Ferrari."

Just a day dream

It's funny how things change and what you start thinking about when you find the person you want to be with and you actually know that it's going to work out and be something wonderful. I went from day dreaming about finding the right guy for me to now thinking about weddings! I'm so embarrassed to admit this... Oh well, haha.

I never wanted a big wedding (I still don't). I actually never really thought about the details of it until now. I just knew that I wanted it to be something like the Richard Gere and Julia Roberts wedding at the end of Runaway Bride. I would love to have it outside in the fall if the weather is nice. A small close family and friends type ceremony in the morning.

Elegant

Simple

Natural

And at night, the reception or dinner - an evening in the forest.

Intimate

Enchanting

Warm

These are just some random ideas I had running through my head. And of course I need Roshan's input and our families too. But all Roshan really cares about are the pictures. Haha. A girl can dream :)

I'm a bitch

This song pretty much says it all. In one of those moods. Letting it pass through.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhfiiGGy7Ls

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

[Chorus:]

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

[Chorus]

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

[Chorus]

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Hose water

Remember the days when you were a child. Running through the sprinkler on hot summer days, asking for a dollar for the ice cream truck, and rolling around in the grass claiming the earth as she hugged you. After hours of playing in the dirt and sun, our parents would hose us down and we would drink the beautiful water as it sparkled in the sun. What happened to that water?

Over the years, we were told that the same water we used to drink out of the tap and hose was no longer clean. Was that true? Is that true? No. In fact, we have some of the cleanest drinking tap water in the world. The water bottle industry spent millions of dollars in advertising campaigns to convince us otherwise. They told us that bottled water was cleaner. That it tasted better.

The truth is plastic bottles can make us sick and kill the earth. Plastic when exposed to certain temperatures releases potentially harmful chemicals. Also, plastic bottles pile up as mountains of waste. Of course you can recycle but the energy and supplies it takes to make these bottles is unnecessary. I can see the need for plastic water being used in countries with filthy water. But here in the states? Ridiculous!

I've been looking for some nice glass water bottles for awhile now. Some of my favorite designs are from companies such as Voss, KOR, and just recently I came across Faucet Face. I fell in love with one of their bottles. The price at first seemed a little high but with the money I would be saving from using a glass bottle (estimated $334 a year), the environment I would helping, and the small percentage that goes to charity, I thought it was worth it.

I encourage you to stop buying plastic bottles and invest in a glass bottle that you will enjoy carrying around and drinking out of! I know I have :)

The next time we're working or playing outside on a lovely hot summer day and thirst creeps up on us, I'll just turn on the hose and we can enjoy a quick yummy, cool stream of hose water.

Faucet Face: http://faucetface.com/

One of the three bottle designs available.

A few of my favorite things #2

ELEPHANTS

(favorite animal)

THE BEACH

(Ocean City)

HIKING

(Sky Meadows State Park)

SUMMER NIGHTS

(Brad Paisley concert)

I'd lie

It would be a lie if I said it didn't hurt a little. But I didn't want to make him feel bad. And I feel silly for being hurt by such a trivial thing - my birthday. Men everywhere forget their significant other's birthday. So it's nothing. Right? Men. Forget. Birthdays. Anniversaries. And sometimes even that they are married... Quite frankly, women aren't perfect either. And forget such things as well.

The funny thing is if it were anyone else, it wouldn't have bothered me. I guess like most girls I'm a sucker for romance. But to get caught up in what he didn't remember or do or what have you is just a recipe for disaster. Especially, if I'm not going to tell him I was hurt. I know I am lucky to have him in my life. And to hold onto something so small is petty and ridiculous. He is funny, handsome, and sweet. Kind. Loving. Caring. Honest. Loyal. And true. What more can a girl ask for.

If he said he was sorry again, I would still say it's okay.
If he asked if I was upset again, I wouldn't lie this time. I'd say I'm not <3

Happy birthday to me!

According to Esha, today is my sixteenth birthday. Awesome! Let's see where I would be... Hmmm... High school friends. Care-free life. Teen angst. Puppy love. Crazy crushes. Double life. Rebelling. Self discovery. Flying high. Getting by. Nightly cries. Erratic. Unstable. Emotional.

Actually, no thank you. I'm quite content at twenty seven!

A few of my favorite things #1

I've been so cranky and moody lately. More than usual. I thought I'd take a couple of minutes to write down a few things that make me happy.

ENDLESS BLUE SKIES; DRIVING - WINDOWS DOWN AND THE MUSIC UP

(North Carolina to Virginia)

HOLDING HANDS

ARTI

BASKIN ROBBINS: PINK BUBBLE GUM ICE CREAM. MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP MILKSHAKES

Mom

Mummy is amazing. Where she gets the patience and kindness to handle all that comes her way baffles me. It has to be something inside of her because I lose it fairly quickly I feel.

With all that she is juggling (mostly alone) with family, work, and life humbles me. I am in awe. If I could be even half the woman she is inside and out would make me but more so everyone around me extremely lucky to have her.

As mother and child, I can be very moody and difficult, but she never fails to be a listening ear or a comforting hand. Even when its the most ridiculous thing ever!

Today, the way she took care of my little cousin Esha brought me to tears. I love love love my mommy. Esha has a hard time going to the bathroom - number two. She says it hurts but I think there are several factors that makes her hold it until it hurts. And then she still won't go! Mummy gently coaxed her and explained to her sweetly what she was feeling and how we were going to fix it. And then she worked her mommy magic while Esha cried.

Esha did feel better after awhile and thanked mummy for making her feel better. How she does things without flinching and at ease is incredible. I think I would have panicked! What to dooooo?! Would I have been so gentle? Or patient? I wouldn't have known what I was doing. But maybe now, having seen mummy do it, I too, will be ready when the time comes. I will always look up to my mom <3